Monday morning

Couldn't get to sleep last night even though I was really tired and had gone to bed about tennish. Lay there tossing and turning . . . saw eleven thirty come and go :(

Eventually I must have fallen asleep but I wakened again at about four.
Now this in itself was not an uncommon event - but when I lay down again I became aware that my pillow was drumming like a machine gun. I lay there till it drove me nuts and then I investigated.
It wasn't rocket science to work out what was going on.

Ross.

I stomped down the stairs, found him on his computer playing some computer game and gave him a piece of my mind. He turned the volume down and I went back upstairs - still fuming.

But aren't we all our own worst enemy. Back upstairs I tossed and turned. Every time I closed my eyes, my mind started berating Ross all over again for staying up so late playing games, how he wasn't taking a responsible attitude to his work blah, blah, blah.

 And the longer I kept my eyes closed, the more I thought of  to add to my tirade and the more wound up I became.

D'you know what saved me and calmed me down enough to sleep? I sat up and told him everything I was thinking. Even the stuff I've never said but have thought. No he wasn't there but hearing my voice in my ears did the trick!!

I would definitely recommend this strategy to anyone :)

. . . and here he is, the present bane of my life at a less stressful time in our relationship :) A lot of water under the bridge since then!

This was one of the first photos I scanned and I hadn't learned at this point how to make the photo fit the page. I'm doing much better now :)